Tourette's Syndrome as Future Metalhead
It started like a dare, a friend
saying, in order to be heavy,
you have to listen
to heavier things.
I thought heavy must be a measure
of intensity, which I thought meant
it had something
to do with pain,
which had something to do
with the capacity to resist it.
Heavy cannot be
moved too easily
but I knew I moved all the time,
or my body moved all the time.
We still find this
to be a strange idea.
My body and I are never still.
My body and I somehow are
in that we have too much to control
and lack the control to have ourselves
as a body
had. My friend said he’d start the song. I pressed
into my seat, wondering if this would be music
if music is intended
to be understood
and, if not, could it still be appreciated? I tried making sense
of the screaming but there were only a few stray sounds
like language against
all the noise, but this is called music, and I hear it somewhere, unless
the opposite of noise was never music but the word it’s been given,
that I have
given to it.
My friend forgot to hit pause but I didn’t say anything, just pressed down
into my seat with all of my weight until I had none left to give. I wanted to
prove I could be
my own ballast,
that I could hold my breath and nothing could force it out despite me being
such an antic balloon, always bursting in some lightning I can’t help but keep
generating. And what
could be more metal
than an outburst, an explosion, the permission to explode as everything that explodes
around me, that will explode around me, my body, we are exploding, so I knew I had
to keep listening
to all that light.
Tourette's Syndrome as BOP IT EXTREME
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