Ballistics

In a ballistics lab in Maryland

three artists known as The Propeller Group

aimed assault rifles at each other

and fired them simultaneously into gel blocks

constructed to resemble human flesh.

Fragments of the projectiles,

fused on impact, float suspended

around a flower of smoke. Shot through

with light, the resulting twenty-one gel blocks,

like this one elegantly displayed

inside a custom vitrine, enchant.

On a flat screen hanging on the wall like a black canvas,

the collision replays on a single-channel loop

in extreme slow motion, the bullets

tearing the surface of the seen

as when a lake breaks from a stone.

The AK-47 vs. The M16 was on view

at the Des Moines Art Center that Thursday evening

back in early June when I visited

“one last time” with you.

Little cloudbursts we left on the glass:

pierced flower, bright insects, tiny supernova.

I stopped looking—you were there.

We turned and walked away.

My Viet Cong

At the bookstore where we like to go, my lover finds me

an almanac of the war, knowing all about my obsessions.

Viet Cong was a derogatory term for Vietnamese Communists

in the south. Instructed by Hanoi to lie low until 1959, they

were activated by the North Vietnamese Politburo to begin

a guerilla war in the south in an attempt to subvert and overthrow . . .

Viet Cong was also the name of this post-punk band from Calgary.

They sound like lasers drilling into ice, winters in Wisconsin,

my heart’s furnace. The sound that begins Viet Cong resembles someone

trying to punch their way out of a coffin, according to Pitchfork.com.

In Saigon once, my grandmother’s caretaker silently clapped

her hands over her ears, mouthing “Bomb! Bomb! Bomb!”

“Three” was what everyone called her. “Bomb”

was the only English word I heard Bà Ba speak.

When Three was a girl the sky opened up with Rolling Thunder

so loud she became partially deaf. War loaned her the word.

My nickname, Bờm, when you say it, sounds like a little bomb.

My American classmates couldn’t say it right, so I became “Boom.”

But I was talking about Viet Cong. The band came under attack,

for not knowing two syllables could trigger such a grim

history. During rehearsal, the bassist aimed his guitar

like a machine gun. “All you need is a rice paddy and straw hat,”

the drummer shouted. “That would be so Viet Cong!”

Their new name is Preoccupations.

As a kid, I watched every single Vietnam War movie.

Apocalypse Now. The Deer Hunter. Full Metal Jacket. Platoon.

You name it. I was too young to realize I was after

my own face on the NVA soldiers and VC guerillas.

I hummed along as King, the black soldier played by Keith David,

sang low, “I come from Alabama with my banjo on my knee,

and I’m going to Louisiana, my true love for to see. Oh, Susanna!”

Back then, I didn’t know they shot the war in the Philippines.

Mount Makiling for jungle scenes. Cavite for river and village scenes.